Happy Sunday everyone!
Did you all enjoy your weekends? I certainly did. My last two days have involved lots of fun, challenges and spontaneity… the perfect recipe for a wonderful weekend
So lets rewind…
Saturday morning got off to a great start when the postie brought me a parcel (the contents of which will be revealed later…) Then I went shopping avec mummy to buy my lil sis some birthday pressies. I got her a cute pair of sunnies from topshop and some frilly knickers, and my mum got her a bunch of cool summer clothes. I LOVE buying gift for people - way more than I enjoy buying things for myself – so I can’t wait to watch her open her presents!
A few weeks ago my mum asked me if I wanted to go to her running club’s summer social event. They have a massive bbq on the top of a pretty hill and there are games of rounders, music etc. I declined the offer because of the whole food/eating-in-front-of-loads-of-people-I-don’t-know sitch. To be honest I think she knew the answer I would give, she just didn’t want me to feel excluded when her and my dad went. But while we were out shopping she said “Remind me to make a pudding for the running club bbq tomorrow”, and without really thinking about what I was doing I said “Sure. Are there still tickets left? Because I’d love to come with you”. As soon as I said it I knew I wasn’t going to regret it because the smile that filled her face was so worth the anxiety the event would bring
So I spent the rest of Saturday making a pudding to take with us to try and distract myself from my worries about the next day.
Meet Hannah’s first ever Key Lime Pie….
Stage one: gingersnap base

Stage two: lime, condensed milk, egg yolk


Stage three: meringue…. and viola!

Oh I was such a proud momma! I’m pleased to say this baby went down a storm amoungst the runners. I didn’t sample any myself but the people who did gave it top marks
Which brings me on to Sunday. I worked from 10:30 – 1:00 at Boots as usual and then off we went to the bbq. I was sporting this outfit…

Topshop denim skirt, vinatge belt, H&M kids navy cami, topshop green cropped jacket (how embarassing, I’ve just noticed you can see my a teddy bear in the background on my bed.. dont judge!) And…

a new beaded necklace
my (almost 6months!) late birthday present from my family in Australia which came in the post yeserday morning! I love beady things, and I love blue… so it was a pretty spot on gift!
ANYWAY, as soon as we arrived on the hill, in true English-weather fashion the heavens opened. Luckily everyone had come prepared for such an occurance so the gazibos and umbrellas came out and the bbq went on. I was so worried about the food because I can’t even remember the last time I ate something that wasn’t cooked/bought/prepared by myself or my mum (with the exception of my time in ip) but I had a veggie burger in a WHITE roll (omg yes, you heard correctly… refined flour!) with a buttload of ketchup, naturally
I knew this wasn’t enough compared to my usual lunches and having come straight from work I’d missed my morning snack too, so I made myself have some cous cous salad on the side. I’m not gunna lie - the whole event was HARD and I struggled to enjoy myself. But the point was, I did it, and it made my mum happy me being there which in turn made me happy
Sometimes you just have to suck it up and do things you don’t particularly want to do if it means someone elses day will be better because of it.
And it turns out there are some serious hotties that go to the running club, which is always a bonus! When we arrived a group of them were already there and one said really loudly “Oooh Claire, is this the daughter you’ve been telling us all about??” (cue me blushing like an idiot) and I ended up chatting with a few of them for ages
they were very friendly boys. And for once I didn’t actually mind getting some male attention. Before my relapse I used to attract a lot of interest from the opposite sex, and not always in a good way, so part of my ed was fuelled by the desire to make myself unattractive… ok I’m aware how stupid that sounds but its true. So usually whenever a guy starts flirting with me I panic and ed chimes in with “see??? come back to me and all this will go away!” but I managed to brush him off this time and enjoy the attention.
And that was pretty much my weekend! Welp girlies, I’m bushed. I think tonight is going to involve a comfort-food style supper, season 2 of Dexter and some weekly pedicure loving
Hope you all have a nice relaxing evening too!
xoxo
so proud of you pushing yourself this weekend and seeing that life without ED is worth it
xxx
Aww I’m so glad you had a good time! All the anxiety was worth it, clearly, and going out and enjoying normal experiences like this is so good for beating ED. I remember my first time of eating something nto prepared by myself or my mum…My friend made me a jam sandwich lol and I remember panicking about how much jam he’d put in it. Pathetic, i know.
You’re really pretty btw! And I love the outfit, especially the jacket. Oh, and the necklace, it looks really beautiful and special
xxx
SO glad you went and had such a good time! I think when we are anxious about something, it’s a clear sign we need to go for it! Proud of how well you handled it, and a BBQ with hotties? Can I come next time?
You never revealed your package!
It was the necklace from australia
sorry if I didn’t make it clear. And I will definitely be bringing you to my next BBQ-hottie combo
That doesn’t sound odd to me at all, a big part of my ED was that I knew I wasn’t attractive at low weights. That sort of attention can be really scary. Well done for coping so well with the event, I bet your mum is really proud of you now! Your key lime pie looks gorgeous as well, yum
Hey girl
Glad you had a wonderful time this weekend. No matter what ED tries to tell you, you are beautiful. And those pictures certainly prove it. Keep up your success with recovering and just know that you’ve got support here. Life without ED is so possible, and SO worth it. Taking small stpes is the key, and you’re definitely doing so, which is amazing. Love you girl! Love the necklace too
and the outfit! Gorgeous.
Love you lots!
Meg
hee hee! I’m glad you had a terrific weekend, and enjoying the bask of the opposite sex’s adoration! At times like this, it’s just best to enjoy, because well…you only have this one chance before you find the perfect ONe and marry!
you are SO gorgeous!
Your teddy bear is cute
Glad you had such a great weekend the pie looks delish
wow hannah i am so proud of you for going to that bbq. great smack in ED face
doesn’t it feel so good to do things like these? i always feel like they help me to see that the restrictions that i put on myself are so stupid and pointless.
your pudding looks delish girl! damn i am in switzerland so i cant try it. is it as hot in england as it is here? in geneva its so so damn hot.
have a wonderful start to the week beautiful
xxx
Yeah girl! I’m glad you had such a nice weekend and gave ED a good shaking up. Even if it was a bit uncomfortable, I’m glad you made your mom happy! And plus, next time you have to eat out or whatever, it will be easier because you’ve had this experience.
Enjoy your Monday, love!
What a lovely post! That key lime pie looks gourmet. And I LOVE your outfit! Style inspiration <3
I'm so happy that you changed your mind and decided to give the BBQ a chance. Mm veggie burgers
You showed yourself, your mom, and all the fun new people you met that you are more than strict eating times or food prep. You are HANNAH!!
Gosh, this just made me all excited!
That key lime pie looks gourmet. And I LOVE that outfit! Style inspiration <3
It's great that you decided to try the BBQ after all! Mm veggie burgers. You showed yourself, your mom, and all the new people you met that you are more than just strict eating or food prep. You are HANNAH!! Rawr
hi sweetie
and im glad you had a nice time! you look beautiful by the way and i love your outfit!
awww so nice of you to go to that event because your mum wanted you to
also way to go on challenging yourself and steppingoutside your comfort zone
have a nice night hun
xxxx