Breakfast: porrigde made with vanilla soy milk topped with prunes, dried apricots and craisins, drizzled with maple. Made for me by my darling mummy.
I’m sorry to say I’m still not well. I have thankfully regained the use of my voice, but my glands are still the size of golf balls (you can see them through my neck! quite amusing actually) my fever won’t budge and my throat is raw from coughing 
So needless to say I haven’t been in the mood for cooking or meal preparing – thank goodness for mummys!
There was a time when I refused to eat anything made by anyone but myself. I rejected all my mothers cooking, and didn’t even trust her to peel a carrot for me. I’m so glad things are different now! The joy on her face when I eat something she has cooked or prepared is so precious. All mothers want is to nourish their babies, so the pain I have put her through in the past by denying her this maternal instinct leaves me choked up with guilt. But all I can do now is work towards repairing the damage I’ve done to my body and give her a healthy, happy daughter!
Sometimes I lose sight of why I am doing this. Why I bother trudging on through this difficult, painful journey. And while I know recovery is something you must only do for yourself, when that isn’t motivation enough, peace of mind for my beautiful mother is. She gave me life – the least I can do is to respect that life and myself in return.
I love you mum <3
My mum and I sailing in Turkey two summers ago. Excuse the shiny face 
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This post is so beautiful. I can especially relate because my mother is so important to me. The best thing about her: she is always there to listen and give me advice. Anytime I have a problem, I can turn to her, and she can comfort me.
Have a great day, hope you feel well soon love!
Shiny face or not, you look beautiful in that photo
you are so pretty!
It’s so easy to forget why we are putting ourselves through all of this anxiety in the name of recovery, but I found writing down my motivations and carrying them around with me helped a lot in the first few months – maybe worth a try?
I hope you feel better soon love <3
Beautiful!
I’m so glad I quickly jumped on my Mums (ironic) computer to check the bloggies, and saw yours!
I sometimes feel so sad about moving forward because the amount of pain seems like so much, but I guess the rewards from recovery definitely out weigh (no pun intended, hehehehe) the sadness. Life has so much more to offer than ED.
My Mum is my best friend, she’s everything that I’ve ever needed and ever wanted, loving Mums!
xxxxxx love you xxxxxx
Beautiful post and what a beautiful picture, gorgeous girl!
It’s so great you’re able to enjoy your mom’s meals again, I believe those things are really important. Hope you feel better really soon, take care!
xxx Julia (Taste of Living)
Beautiful post, as always =D
(.. I guess I don’t really know better lol)
Feel better soon darling.. It has been waay too long! I’m glad you are being properly taken care of though.. if I didn’t know better I would say your mama is a foodie
What do I love about my mama? The fact that she tries harder than anyone I know to understand my situation even though I know she doesn’t. The effort is there and that means the world to me.
xoxo
Tat
this post really made me cry. my mum means the world to me. her patience, her grace, her love, her honesty and her passion have made me the person i am today. if it wasn’t for my mum i wouldn’t even be here today anymore.
hannah i think this is the first picture i have ever seen of you where you look healthier and now i can see the true beauty that lies within you. don’t take this wrong. you are gorgeous no matter what but on that photo you are glowing. your hair, your skin and that cheeky smile is the perfect smile for a young woman our age.
wonderful post dear you are right mothers are wonderful and all they want to do is share their love.
ive been in the same boat, not eating anything my mom would cook, but i’m moving past that and i love seeing her so happy when she makes me something to eat.
feel better!! vitamin C!!!
xoxo
loved this post! ur mom sounds so lovely and makes a beautiful bowl of oats, wow!
i have yet to trust my mom to cook or even come near my food :/ but i know it would make her so happy if she cooked for me. i used to love her food and when she would make me lunch! but now, i am so controlling in the kitchen. you are so inspiring and your mum is so so lucky to have you as a daughter! 
“But all I can do now is work towards repairing the damage I’ve done to my body and give her a healthy, happy daughter!”
- loved this! Hannah, so amazing, and i feel the same way. it would make my mom the happiest lady ever, to see me happy, and i know all ur mum wants is too see her Hannah happy, healthy and glowing!
xo love you!
~maya
this was such an amazing post, and wow you mum sure makes a yummy bowl of oatmeal!! i make my mom oats sometimes lol…i need to work on trusting her to make me something like you said you wouldnt let her peel a carrot for you, i am the same now, i wont let her near my food :/ but she is always so eager to cook for us, i should, she is a great cook…i guess my ED needs all the control…but i must work on that, and like you said, “All mothers want is to nourish their babies,” so true…and so beautiful, Hannah you are amazing…and your mom is so lucky to have you as a daughter.
xx love you so much
Eliza
What a lovely post.
I just love my Mum for being my Mum, its a hard job and I dont thank her enough for doing it.
Hope you feel better soon x
hannah this is such a lovely post
it’s true what you said, all mothers want is to nourish their children, and so yes, it is sad that we push them away so often. but im glad that you’re able to eat her cooking now, especially when there are such nice bowls of porridge waiting for you!
the best thing about my mum is that she’s always there for me… and so patient. i love her to bits
the picture of you, even with the shiny face that is hardly shiny at all, is absolutely gorgeous. really really really gorgeous hannah
I LOVE THIS!! that is so true, i feel so guilty for putting my mom through this. i knwo she has tried so hard to raise me to be healthy & a normal eater and all that and i feel like i owe y recovery to her! you are tooo cute and you look gorgeous in that picture hun
xoxo
shelley
http://findinghappinessandhealth.wordpress.com
please feel better soon!
My favorite thing about my mom is that I can find comfort in her no matter what. She is always there for me and that is why I love her
My mother is so precious to me, more like my best friend I guess.
I think I caught whatever you have,
I feel rougggggghhhhhh.
Have a fab weekend x
Awww how I wish my mom would make oatmeal for me when I’m sick, but she never get it right T_T!
So she just makes me Ginger tea
You and your mom are really beautiful ^^
Hope you’ll feel better! (You can actually SEE the glands??? O_O, woah…)
xoxo
Vanilla
Thank you for the sweet blog comment. I hope you get better soon! Sounds like you have a great mom!
xoxo
Maggie
Aww.. I’m sure your Mum is beaming too having such a wonderful, sweet, beautiful daughter! You both look so relaxed together on that boat!
I love my Mum for being the strong woman that she is. No matter how much I stress her up or make her worried, she takes it in her stride. She tries her best to turn my frown back up again and she’s capable, and full of compassion. I love Mum because she may not always be perfect, but that’s what makes her even more special – her little idiosyncrasies that bother me from time to time are exactly what makes her who she is!
Keep getting better Hannah!! You’re a star and your positivity is really shining through your words!!
xx
what a beautiful, positive, encouraging post! i love that my mom is my best friend, she is always there for me for advice or if i just need someone to listen. she is awesome
we are blessed with great moms!